Fuck.

I'm pretty damn sure I burned a bridge today. Its making me feel sick to my stomach.

I guess there was no other logical outcome.

I feel like I had a good reason(s) for what I did, and that big picture, I made this decision to better take care of myself. I tried not be an ass when I did it, either.

But now that its done, I am second guessing myself like mad and feel like shit.

I wish I could've walked away secure in my decision. Not metally running my 'justifications' around in my head like an angry tape loop and trying to feel 'right'.

I hate making decisions. I'm always afraid I'll make some irreperable mistake and have to live with it for the rest of my life. Its one of my defining qualities.

I didn't want this to be the answer. I didn't want to have to do this.

Fuck.